Lamentation

Why does love have its way with me?
Why do I feel it under my skin and in my bones?

I've let every man I’ve ever known abuse me
As a little girl, climbing the trees and walking on rocks,
my mom would always tell me it wasn't beautiful to wear scars

I would've listened
I should've
But to give love and get it feels enchanting

I lament my foolish ways
The destruction I have caused my insides

The love I denied myself
The time and space wasted

I will fall into place
Lose myself

Trickle back into the river of consciousness and fertility
Back into the holds of God
Back into the flowing stream of life

Where not a day is wasted, not a clock watched
Only love and life
In all of its fleshly and unseen forms

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